Appreciate the kind words. Been in and out of therapy as needed for a decade or more now. Finally accepting things as they are.

Still alive last I checked but dead to me if that means anything.

My dad used to say “your ass is grass and I’m the lawnmower” as a joke sometimes, but then he would beat the ever living fuck out of me with whatever was in reach and it didn’t seem like he was joking at all.

I was confused by what this meme meant, but it reminded me of that.